I don’t want to forget the way you told me that you had missed talking to me that week.
I don’t want to forget how you opened your arms and offered me a hug.
I don’t want to forget the way you compared your hand size with mine until you entwined our fingers together casually, pretending like it wasn’t a big deal. I don’t want to forget how on the inside I was screaming that this is all I ever wanted.
I don’t want to forget the way you let go of my hand to play with my new ring that I wore that night, now I never take it off.
I don’t want to forget how after that you put your arm around me whilst I played with the corner of your shirt you wore that night that you knew I loved.
I don’t want to forget how you looked at me, it was like for that one night I actually meant something to you. You looked at me like we were about to kiss but me being me I looked down at the ground and started a conservation. I wish that I kept my mouth shut that night, I should have just kissed you. However this lead on to you quoting some of the words that I use a lot and I couldn’t help but smile at how you had noticed. All I ever wanted was to be noticed by you.
I don’t want to forget how after we had gotten another drink, you made me spin into your arms. I fell for you so hard and for once you caught me.
I don’t want to forget how you held me in front of you and controlled my arms making me dance because you didn’t want to. And I won’t forget how our friends looked between each other that night and knew that this wasn’t going to end well yet they didn’t say anything at all.
And now that you’re gone I just want to scream at you that I wrote down everything you did, and that even though you can forget what you did easily, I can’t. I can’t escape this and you can. These memories haunt me every night when I’m alone and this isn’t fair because sometimes I can’t tell what actually happened and what was just part of a dream. I want that night to haunt you too."